Beg by CD Reiss

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****WARNING – THIS BOOK IS FOR ADULTS*****

My name is Monica. I’m a singer born and raised in Los Angeles.
I’ve stopped dating. When I cut a record, or win a Grammy, maybe then I’ll be with someone, but every man in my past has done everything he could to make me submit myself to him, and it’s gotten in the way of my career. I won’t do it again.

But there’s Jonathan. He owns the high-rise hotel where I work, and he is gorgeous and charming. I refuse to fall in love with him, even though when he asks me to submit to him, I want nothing more.

This book was surprisingly good. I was expecting a desperate female character who severely lacked self confidence. A love at first sight do anything he says just to be with him type of book and it wasn’t like that at all. Monica actually has self esteem and only swore off men to focus on her music career. She understands anything that happens between her and Jonathan will be just for fun. I was surprised by Jonathan’s character as well. He wasn’t a dominate with control issues. He was just a “normal” billionaire who lost the love of his life and just sleeps around. The only Monica annoyed me was she purposely didn’t win the bet they made. However, she does end up making it worth her while. Their relationship was really fun and easy to follow. I think the blurb of the book actually doesn’t do the story justice at all. I will end up reading the other books in this series because I’m really interested in seeing how it turns out. I definitely recommend this story for all erotica lovers who are looking for a confident female character.

“Yes?” He gasped.
“Yes.” I whispered. “Yes to everything.”
“Yes,” he whispered in my ear, then pushed my bra up and cupped my tits, finding my nipples and running them with his thumbs. My hips levitated from the desk, and I made some noise deep in my throat. Damn, he was good.

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External Forces by Deborah Rix

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In the future what’s left of America has closed its borders to everyone in favor of genetic preservation. They dispose of anyone who opposes the order as well as their biggest fear…the deviant. After overhearing her mother Jess learns she is deviant and will be discovered and killed. To avoid that fate she enlist in the Special Forces with her best friend Jay. But Jess quickly start to uncover secrets in their camp and cling to the hope of getting outside the borders to escape what may happen to her.

This book is beyond amazing and totally engaging right from the start. After reading so many YA/Dystopian stories it was refreshing to read something new and original. Even the romance part of the book takes a course that doesn’t follow the norm. There were a few times the story reminded me of other books. For example, The training Jess receives, her early relationship with Matt, and how she has something a little more special about her reminded me of Divergent. But that’s about where the similarities end. All of the characters were relatable and realistic and there was excellent character development in the book. I also enjoyed the use of science throughout the story and how believable it was. It touched on interesting themes towards the end of the book. The end of the story was let down for me though. I know the author plans to make this a series but it was too abrupt for me. I think it could’ve been wrapped up better than what it was and it didn’t exactly flow with the chapter either. Overall, the complex and well constructed plot definitely made for a page turner and a highly recommended book. I can’t wait for the sequel to this story!

I release my anger and give up my shaky control with relief. I am free. The heat gushes out from my center, I’m glowing, and everything around me slows down.

Stones by Polly Johnson

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Coo is trying to cope with the hand that life has dealt her. At sixteen, she feels she’s too young to have lost her older brother, Sam, to alcoholism. She’s skipping school to avoid the sympathy and questions of her friends and teachers, and shunning her parents, angry that they failed to protect her, and desperate to avoid having to face the fact that, towards the end, she began to wish Sam would leave forever – even die. Then, one day, truanting by the Brighton seafront, Coo meets Banks, a homeless alcoholic and she’s surprised to discover that it is possible for her life to get more complicated.

Despite warnings from her friends and family, Coo and Banks develop an unlikely friendship. Brought together through a series of unexpected events, strange midnight feasts, a near drowning and the unravelling of secrets, together they seek their chance for redemption. That is, until Coo’s feelings start getting dangerously out of hand.

This was a really good coming of age young adult novel. Coo was an amazingly developed character. She’s dealing with her feelings on the death of her brothers and how her family is reacting to it. Her parents practically ignore her and act as if her brother was a saint not an abusive alcoholic and she doesn’t understand why they expect her to mope and mourn about his death when all he brought was fear when he was alive. I was really able to get into this story and read it in one day. I really understood why Coo felt the way she did and put herself in dangerous situations. She made it clear that she just wanted her parents to notice her and care. While her brother was alive everything was about him. Whether or not he would attack them, steal from them, or never show up again and she just wants to feel loved by her parents. I thought it was interesting that she spent a lot of time with Banks who was also an alcoholic considering what she went through with her brother. Not only that but the fact that she drank herself. The dynamic between them was confusing at times. I kept feeling like she had a crush on Banks even though he was a bum but also that she trying to save him the way her brother couldn’t be saved. It was like she was in love with the idea of what could be not reality. Which is why sometimes I felt as though Coo should’ve been older. While reading the story she just seemed too mature to just be 16 even though she had her tantrum moments. I think it would’ve added something extra to the storyline. It was a really hood look into how an addiction and a death can change a family. I really liked the little elements in the story the author incorporated like finding a special stone and the ending was very bittersweet but fitting. Overall I enjoyed it and recommended this for a good read. I’m looking forward to reading other books by this author.

Thought Diary: ‘Why is it that when we really want to punish someone for how they’ve made us feel, it’s usually ourselves we end up hurting most?’ Me

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Addicted Series by Krista Richie and Becca Richie

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She’s addicted to sex. He’s addicted to booze…the only way out is rock bottom.

No one would suspect shy Lily Calloway’s biggest secret. While everyone is dancing at college bars, Lily stays in the bathroom. To get laid. Her compulsion leads her to one-night stands, steamy hookups and events she shamefully regrets. The only person who knows her secret happens to have one of his own.

Loren Hale’s best friend is his bottle of bourbon. Lily comes at a close second. For three years, they’ve pretended to be in a real relationship, hiding their addictions from their families. They’ve mastered the art of concealing flasks and random guys that filter in and out of their apartment.

But as they sink beneath the weight of their addictions, they cling harder to their destructive relationship and wonder if a life together, for real, is better than a lie. Strangers and family begin to infiltrate their guarded lives, and with new challenges, they realize they may not just be addicted to alcohol and sex.

Their real vice may be each other.

If you’re looking for a good book or series to start off your book challenge for the new year then this is it! I started off just going to review Addicted To You, the first book in the series, but ended up reading all the books in the series.
The relationship between Lilly and Lo is so beautifully horrible you can’t stop reading. Right from the very beginning of the book you’re sucked into both of their addictions with Lilly trying to sneak from the bed of a guy and Lo drinking straight from a bottle of whiskey. Their addictions cause them to keep themselves isolated from everyone just to sustain their addictions without complications. However, it ends up being to much and they have to make the decision of whether or not they love each other more than their addictions. Not only will you get caught up in their story but also the dynamics of their family and new friends.
The next book(s) Ricochet (#1.5) and Addicted For Now (#2) pick up where the first left out. Ricochet is a more in depth look into how Lily is effected by her addiction and how deep and serious it goes.
I loved how the authors addressed sex addiction and the stereotypes and assumptions that can are placed on women sexually. I also appreciated how they made sure to add in the personal notes that the sexual exploration of a woman is not something to be ashamed of. Nor is dealing with an addiction period. The authors could have easily taken a story about a sex addict and turned it into a cheesy romance novel but it’s completely not that way. It’s an amazing series and I am anticipating the following books in the ADDICTED series. I would recommend this for anyone who enjoys NA novels both male and female. There is something I’m this series for everyone.

I don’t talk to Lo about feelings. About how it makes him feel to watch me bring home a
different guy every night. And he doesn’t ask me how it feels to watch him drown into oblivion.  He stifles his judgment and I withhold mine, but our silence draws tension between us, inescapable. It pulls so taught that sometimes I just want to scream. But I
keep it inside. I hold back. Every comment that undercuts our addictions fractures the system in place. The one where we both live being free to do as we please. Me, bedding any guy. Him, drinking all of the time.